Revelation

I have been crucified in Christ, It is no longer I who lives, but Christ who lives in me...

How can I deny a Savior who sacrificed his life so freely for me, a wreckless sinner? I turn my back on him so many times, the same sin over and over again. I close the door only to reopen it later. How can I know I'm making this decision for the right reason? It aches like a sword piercing through my soul, my heart is in my throat, my knees are week and my head wants to explode. However I realize the time has come to seriously consider His dedication to me, requiring a response of loyalty and head over heels passion for Him. I yearn for Him to wipe the tears from the eyes of the one I know is affected by my decisions, by my wrong choices, and by my procrastination. I am so sorry.

"With all creation I sing, praise to the King of Kings, you are my everything, and I will adore you!"

Not Quite in Love

Nothing is ever certain. Right when we think we have things all figured out something happens that confuses us even more. Have you ever been there?
Love is a dynamic thing, you can't just fall into it. It's not like your just walking along one day and you just happen to plummet into this hole called love. True love is work. It requires patience, kindness, faithfulness, honesty, and understanding. Why do I use the "L" word so lightly then? That's exactly what I'm trying to figure out. We falsely advertise our feelings with this word, we use it like money to pay for what we want, most of all we've tainted love. When you decide to make that commitment to truly loving someone, make it real; but when your unsure, don't use it! It's time to refine true love, one person at a time, one mouth at a time, one usage at a time.

1 Corinthians 13:1-8 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.

Life is entertaining, unpredictable, amusing, and at times confusing. I'm just a young woman trying to figure it all out, get ahead, and jump on the train destined for success. Hop on the train with me, the future lies upon the unavoidable tracks, and it's sure to be a wild ride.

“…No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him…” 1 Corinthians 2:9